Today was bad. Do you know what I have learnt though? I cannot plan ... if I try the characters dig their heels in and hold a protest, and make me drag them through torture for 4 hours to get a measly 2000 words.
I didn't like the story. One I have been so excited for, for weeks. I suddenly hate it. I know hate is a strong word, but if I had handwritten it instead of typing it on my computer, there is a strong chance that I would have burnt it by now.
I know myself, I do get this self doubt about my story ... where I hate it, and it deserves nothing more than to be put in a cement block and dropped into the deepest part of the ocean, but it has never happened this soon. Never. I think the earliest it has happened to me (and this is my fifth year) was the 30,000 word mark. I made the tough decision to start again. It's only Day One, I can recover from this!
It took me a couple of hours, but finally I got a spark of an idea ... then I was challenged into a word war, and four 10 min word wars later, I have 1768 words. I think I've found this years holy grail. I'm not expecting it to be a best seller, or for that matter even make it to the possibility of publishing. I do, however, have high hopes that it will make it to 100, 000 words. That's right, instead of the normal (crazy) goal of reaching 50, 000 words in 30 days, I've decided to double my target.
So while 1768 words does technically put me past the minimum 1667 words for day one, I am still short my goal of 3334. There is still time for me to catch up!
I'll be here again tomorrow, hopefully with some better news.